[ There is certainly a lot left undefined about their return. They have no proof that they will return to where and when they were before arriving here on the island. She has chosen to think she will because nothing else has seemed acceptable.
But it is difficult to imagine.
She threads his necklace through the small loop on his pendant, her expression thoughtful. Would she listen to herself? Her eyes stray to his face for a moment, then down at his large fingers on her own pendant. She has to be honest, as dissatisfying as the answer is: ]
I'm not certain. If the attempt is made after everything plays out as Byleth described, perhaps not.
[ It depends on how it is handled, she supposes, but if she has lost everything, if she has fought him in the palace and been defeated, if her allies are dead or scattered, if she has transformed... ]
There was no-- [ She pauses slightly, as though gathering her thoughts. ] --room in Byleth's account for personal details about her. [ This isn't even particularly Byleth's fault; it seems there wasn't exactly time for in-depth discussion with her counterpart. ] Such as whether the transformation had any affect on her [ my ] mind. Regardless, I think hearing me speak more or less as your ally could simply be a betrayal at that point.
[ What a shame that she thinks herself unlikely to grant a second parley so soon. Not even to the boy who kept her from losing her heart in the most difficult time of her life. Her eyes meet his again and she offers a tight smile. ]
I'm sure you now understand why trust would be so difficult for her to measure out but imagine learning that you are one of multiple versions of yourself and you may be the least fortunate. Worse, you have only learned this when you are no longer in a position for another Dimitri's knowledge to be of actionable benefit.
I am not unwilling to speak to her. On the contrary, I wonder if there is anyone better equipped to deal with our counterparts than ourselves and I think we should consider this further. Even so, it would be hard for her to give weight to what I say.
[ The longer she speaks, the more he deflates, his chest a large balloon that has been squeezed out of air-- or hope. Perhaps he truly is too naïve, to have expected any different. ]
I appreciate your honesty. [ This much, he can say in earnest. ] In all truth, it is as I suspected: she may be beyond my reach at this point, and the Professor's accounts only reinforced that thought. But I--
[ The breath he expels is something of a groan, a shake of his head marking his frustration. There are so many ways for him to finish that sentence: that he should have reached for her sooner, that he doesn't want to lose anyone else, that he still cares about her against all odds, that he wishes to save her though it may not be his place to. Would it bother this Edelgard -- his El -- to hear of his depth of feeling for her counterpart? He doesn't think her given to jealousy, but this is a very unique circumstance they find themselves in.
But his El is not beyond his reach, and so reach he does, his palm moving up from her pendant to cup her cheek, thumb stroking skin. No matter how far his thoughts stray, he would be hard pressed to look at that face and not feel a smile spring up in his. ]
You are my one and only beloved. But whether out of fondness for the little girl who was once my dearest, or the feelings I have for the woman standing before me... Across infinite timelines, I know there is no Edelgard von Hresvelg whose smile I would not love to see.
[ As long as they carry even a small fraction of the El he befriended or the El he came to love, so too will they carry a piece of his heart. Going forward, it is only fair that his wife should know. ]
My apologies, I did not mean to sour such momentous occasion. I know that she would call me foolish for it.
[ Is this one of the many ways in which his El and her counterpart are the same, or is this where they differ? He's still waiting on a verdict. ]
[ Dimitri has a large soft heart and learning just how large and soft has been a pleasant surprise after the tales she has heard of his counterpart's stormier nature. That Dimitri will not look at her like this when they meet again, nor would he speak of her so fondly. Again her cheeks warm. She can complain all she wants about this place -- and she will -- but it has been remarkable to have been given a chance to communicate in a way they would not have otherwise.
Leave out the manipulated intimacy and the fact that they didn't choose to come here and much about their story is...
Well, surprisingly romantic. The romance she once told both Dorothea and, more recently, Dimitri himself that she expected to never have. That much she is grateful for. To know love, and more specifically his love. ]
Dimitri--
[ His large soft heart is not foolish on its own. There have been times when she painted him with broad strokes, thinking his heart was too soft or he was too attached to the Church or he was incapable of action when it was needed, and she doesn't think she has always been wrong when judging him but their lives are complications upon complications and she has had a chance to learn his shades of gray by now. ]
--I am not certain that I ever felt particularly special before I met you. Do you know that? I was not by nature an unhappy child but I was one of many and sometimes felt it. I was my father's daughter or someone's sister.
[ And then the experimentation she endured made her a type of special she would not ever have wanted, but that isn't the point she wants to make. The point is that knowing there is so much affection for her in that large soft heart of his still sometimes takes her by surprise. The fact that they can never be those children again doesn't actually detract from the fact that they were those children.
And many of the things she wanted as a child she still wants now.
With a hint of something like pride, she leans in to return his necklace to his rightful place. Not without a small kiss to the side of his face. ]
You have not soured our occasion. I'm pleased that we can speak about difficult subjects and work together to lessen the bloodshed in our future.
[ Combining their strength, one might say. Once the necklace is clasped behind his neck, she frames his face with her hands. ]
I would like for my counterpart to live and see her goals achieved and have a taste of personal happiness. If she cannot see her way past a cell of course she will not go along willingly. But perhaps there is a way to tell her what you know and find a goal that can be worked toward together. Byleth's past does not have to be your future. We will write that ourselves.
[ When she begins to speak again, Dimitri listens with a squint in his eyes and an incredulous tug in his lips. It's true he can't imagine what it must be like to be just one of many -- he has only ever been an only child, the sole heir to the throne, the last of his name -- but to think he made her feel special, even in their childhood? It would be hard to pinpoint whatever he did to accomplish such a feat, as obvious as his puerile affections may have been at the time.
But these days? He can see how she would be made to feel special-- because he actively tries, because she has always been a special presence in his life, through highs and lows. Perhaps she'll never quite understand the full depth of his feelings for her, because she never quite witnessed how deep his hatred ran, but what he told her several months ago remains true. And what else is there to say of a man who loves her more than his once only reason to keep breathing? ]
I can only trust that we will, my beloved. [ He has to, lest that large soft heart of his will shatter. ] And right here and now, between your warm hands, I do. This bright future that you have envisioned... may it be intertwined with mine forevermore.
[ The details of which can be discussed at length and planned for at a later moment, because right now? All he wants is to close his eyes and lean into her touch, her hands dwarfed under his, the curve of his chest swelling and deflating with each deep breath. For all that his mind sometimes will race with affliction for the lives and fates that are beyond his reach, she can calm the tempest every bit as well as she could once cast it.
The breath he exhales is short and bittersweet. ]
It is somewhat of an ironic thought, is it not?
[ Does he intend to leave her in the shadows? Of course not. The pause he takes is only so he can see her again, a gentle brush of his knuckles treating her cheek. ]
You, who would once see yourself as though being no more than your war, and I, a man who is only good for war. Perhaps that is why only you can make me feel at such peace.
[ If Edelgard is her war, then in her Dimitri has found his Somewhere to Belong. ]
[ Special, much like now. But how could she feel any other way when he chooses her? Despite everything from the past he shares with another Edelgard to the blood shed during the war to the difficulties in courting her on this very island, he chooses her. Once it meant everything to be chosen -- believed in -- by their Professor; it means even more to her now.
When he leans into her touch, she welcomes it like she could roll herself in his affection and be buoyant for the rest of her days. She has spent too much time heavy with dire purpose. ]
You are not only good for war. In fact, you have proven yourself capable of building bridges.
[ Still, what he says isn't lost on her. There is a certain odd balance in it, and more importantly she is glad to know that she brings him peace. ]
But I will take you all the same. [ Urging his hand toward her lips, she kisses his open palm and then folds his fingers as though to trap that affection in place. ] Together we may even be good for love.
[ The words sound a bit strange to her own ears. They aren't grounded in any grim practicality; he rekindles her hope. ]
There is something else I'd like for us to do but I think it should wait until the weather clears. [ The snow may not be cold but by the end of a walk they could be covered in it. ] Perhaps later tonight.
[ Capable of building bridges, huh? There is some truth to it, but only in the same extent to which he had outside help: alliances forged out of necessity, secrets never meant to be spilled out, a much greater picture he wouldn't otherwise be able to see in full. The will to find a more peaceful resolution to their conflict had always been there, but without these influential forces, would he truly be able to do it on his lonesome?
Ah, what a silly thought. He just made a vow that Edelgard would never be alone again; that also means neither will he. ]
That may be something else we have learned together.
[ And he will treasure every bit of it, the affection she places right at the center of his palm and that he holds on to with all of his strength-- and his closed fist even draws Hugo's attention for a moment, his little snout trying to sniff out the promise of a hidden snack, but alas, this particular kind of treat is only meant for the larger feline in the room. ]
Ah, you are full of surprises today, eh? [ After a moment's pause for some brief ear scratches -- what a heinous crime it would be, to deny his cat some of his own affection -- Dimitri turns to Edelgard again, his full attention freely given. ] What is it that you would like to do? An evening stroll if you cannot fall asleep?
[ However long it has been since their days of sporadic evening walks and late night messages, already it feels like a lifetime ago. ]
[ She smiles, sincere but not without self-awareness. ]
I think I'm still learning.
[ Obviously falling in love with Dimitri has been... a process, though in some ways it has been easier than one might expect, helped along significantly by their forced separation from the war and the utter absence of those who slither in the dark. It will still be a challenge to build bridges whenever she returns.
But Hugo's curious sniffing makes her let out a small laugh. The hand she holds out to him is also sadly empty but beckoning with a promise of scratches. There are no felines in this apartment who don't like that! ]
What I had in mind was an evening stroll before we even consider sleep.
[ A walk together is something they could do at any time but there's a specific purpose driving this! Timing is important. ]
[ Her attention to Hugo never fails to earn a smile from him, but it's her plan reveal that actually has him breathing out a laugh. Even though they're celebrating his birthday, there is very little he could deny her, least of all today, yet her request is so... simple. Something they could do -- and have done -- any other day. He's hardly the type to complain, of course, and it's true their options around the island are still somewhat limited, but it is still a bit odd. ]
Is that truly all you had in mind? [ A good-humored lilt lingers in his voice, but he does narrow his eyes in curious suspicion. ] I would not object, far from it, but I reckon there is no need for such formality over a simple evening stroll together.
[ Well. Admittedly she is still a fair bit formal without any real need for it, much like she was about their teatime in the balcony; he now understands she had grander plans to unfold, and perhaps that is why he expects something more of their promised walk. ]
Be it as it may, know that you may ask whatever you wish of me. As long as it is in my power, you every whim will be met today.
[ It's only fair, isn't it? She's just given him everything he could ask for. ]
I hardly think it's formal to tell you all I would like to make a point of doing with you today.
[ Well, it's not all. She hasn't veered into anything suggestive... yet.
But another laugh escapes her. ]
It's not my whims we should be following today. [ It isn't that she particularly needs a special day to show or be shown affection but it does feel good to have a nice birthday and contribute to him having one as well. To drive her point home: ] Is there anything you would like to do to celebrate further?
[ Think no more about tonight's walk right now! Later she'll suggest that he wear trousers he can easily roll up for a walk on the beach. ]
[ Think no more of tonight's walk? Not possible, because-- ]
I can think of something I would like us to do once we return from our stroll.
[ There's nothing wrong with the tongue that wets his lips, or the way his voice doesn't drop to a whisper, or even with the less than perfectly innocent quirk to the corner of his mouth-- nothing wrong with being suggestive here, in the privacy of their home. It's something Dimitri had to struggle with for quite some time, his reservations ever so lingering, but he's learned to find comfort in showing both his love and his want for his most beloved without restraints. ]
As for what we could do before then-- [ He pauses for a second, humming as he mulls over his thoughts. ] It may be short notice, but I would enjoy having dinner with our closest friends. [ And also share the news? Their home worlds were a different story, but their formal engagement should come as no surprise to anyone on the island-- and besides, he absolutely must (gloat at) tell Sylvain at the very least, come on! ] Perhaps going skating, assuming the ice will actually keep. It has been a long time since I last had the chance to...
[ Would that even be something Edelgard would be interested in? He remembers she was never thrilled about ice skating as a child, though he would be happy to teach her. ]
But, these are simply whims that I can go without. My one true wish has already been granted.
And then realizes a fraction of a moment after she gives him her most attentive look that he's blatantly flirting. There was a time when everything suggestive that he said was an accident, something he seemed to stumble blindly into, but now...
Well, now he licks his lips like a cat anticipating a meal and it isn't at all lost on her that she is that meal. Sorry, Hugo, but now her hand finds its way into Dimitri's hair instead. ]
Then I suppose the only question is whether or not we will make it to a bed first.
[ They don't have to. Her eyes have been opened to positions and locations she would not have imagined (and would possibly have been scandalized by) before. Just living on the island was eye-opening but living with Dimitri has taken it a step further. There is no room they can't use, no surface they can't "bless," no need to hurry into a bedroom and hide their passion beneath the blankets. Unless they want to. It's not something she could have expected to feel liberated by but she does.
She leans in to press her lips against his chin. He may be sweetly proclaiming that what he truly wants he has already received but that is no reason not to celebrate to the fullest. ]
Why don't we first let our friends know that we would like to have dinner with them? Perhaps we can meet at the restaurant. Then-- [ She's allowed to give her husband-to-be one more kiss before she finishes her thought. ] --we can investigate the ice.
[ It's a blink-and-you'll-miss-it moment, and she's quick to save face, but for a second there it really did seem like she expected him to elaborate on his idea, didn't it? He knows he's not very practiced at it, but he would like to think there's been enough improvement to his flirting that she wouldn't be caught off guard like that!
But then she flirts back, and it evokes many a memory-- the oldest dating back to a masquerade they attended, soon after she learned of his identity. Influenced as they both had been, he did not step back from his (reckless) propositioning even when their masks fell off, and she came over of her own volition, and what followed was such a surge of renewed urgency for each other's touch they couldn't even make it to his bedroom. It was a bit scandalous to think about, at the time, and probably the kind of behavior they would actively have to watch out for back in their worlds, but here, in this home they have built for themselves? It's just right. ]
I suppose a walk together could have us working up quite an appetite.
[ Yes, just right enough that he can take their flirting a step further, his lips seeking her kiss when she aims for his chin, once, twice, unabashed in his greed-- and he would love to get carried away in the moment, kiss her in full and get a head start on their celebrations, but their schedule sounds tightly packed, doesn't it? Finish their tea, have an impromptu dinner with friends, skating on ice, then a walk together... If anything, they should start getting ready soon. How strange it still feels, to have so much to look forward to.
(Sometimes, he still wonders if he deserves any of it.) ]
That sounds like an excellent plan. [ Her kiss chases his intrusive thoughts away, and he thanks her in silence with another. ] They might even wish to join us for a stint on the ice. Even Felix seemed to enjoy it, a year ago.
[ It had meant much to Dimitri, too, as that was the first time since their heavy heart-to-heart that he and Felix got to stop avoiding each other and and take active steps in mending their friendship back up. It is not nearly as fraught now as it was back then, but the memory still gives him pause. ]
Do you think we should formally share the news with them?
A walk and skating. [ Well. Possibly skating, if it looks safe enough to her resident ice skating expert. ] I expect us to be quite hungry by then.
[ Not to mention the small surprise she intends to give him on their walk, which she suspects may make his heart swell. The thought of this shared experience makes hers simultaneously flutter with nerves and soar with pride. ]
Would you like to? I see no reason not to, unless you would like to speak of it privately with anyone.
[ But the truth is that she doubts it will be much of a surprise. Their romance has involved sharing their day-to-day lives for well over a year now. Sleeping together, waking together, exploring together.
In some ways it feels like making up for lost time. ]
[ His smile matches hers, the cup he had just sipped from promptly placed back down. ]
Then I suppose teatime will have to last us long past dinner.
[ Does he mean their tea and baked goods as sustenance? No, not really, and the way he leans over for just one more kiss is a good indicator of his true intent. A little more flirting can't hurt, right?
(The real challenge is to keep it to flirting only-- can't get carried away, they have plans to get to! Speaking of:) ]
Oh, I would prefer sharing the news over dinner, myself. [ He reaches over for another gougères, choosing to focus on the food for the moment-- the only part of his hunger that can be immediately sated. ] But the last time I acted on my own over this particular topic, it became reason for contention, remember?
[ It's as light-hearted a jab as any, but one can't say he hasn't learned his lesson!
When next he hums, it's both in appreciation of the cheesy delight and in thoughtful contemplation, head tilting to one side. ]
I wonder if it would be possible to make one small addition to that anonymous post.
[ She's aware that he is being playful (and she likes it) but if he thinks for even a moment that kisses will not be stolen at dinner, while they skate, on their walk then he's entirely mistaken.
But when he takes the opportunity to treat himself to something besides her kisses, she gives him a smile accompanied by an arched eyebrow. ]
As I recall-- [ They will never not recall this but she is also capable of being playful! ] --we were not actually married when you consulted the network. This announcement is one we will make together, with no need for anyone's advice.
[ Wait, what's that he said? Her eyes widen. ]
What is there to add?
[ Half a moment later: ]
Perhaps that we have come to a different agreement?
[ Is the network archived? Can people go that far back and read that post even now? Has he ever gotten a late reply weighing in on the status of their spur-of-the-moment influenced exchange of vows? ]
[ Oh, he fully expects kisses to be mutually stolen throughout the rest of their day, but will it be enough to sate him? Hardly. There is no more restraining the beast within, after all.
Well. At least tonight, after they have seen to their schedule. In the meantime, he will bask in this easy playfulness and take comfort in the fact that, for once, the topic at hand doesn't have him feeling self-conscious over his ill-advised decisions in the past. ]
No one's advice, perhaps. But I did learn a valuable lesson that day-- that is, to always consult with you before making any public remarks about our relationship.
[ To think he felt as though he couldn't talk openly with her-- and at the time, perhaps he really couldn't! Ah, how that feels so far behind them now, with their fingers casually interlocking and the plans they enthusiastically discuss... ]
If it is possible to make such a late addition, I would like to say you have finally agreed to marry me of your own accord. [ Very! Belatedly!! Though his smile says he doesn't really mind it. ] In truth, I doubt anyone would read it. But just as we have carved out our names in this home, I would like to leave no loose knots behind once we return to our worlds.
[ Or: let future island historians have no doubt that "Mrs. Blaiddyd" was so much more than a simple robot imposition! ]
[ The curve of her smile sharpens. She has taken a large step toward cementing her own happiness and it involves him but she still can't apologize for any difficulty she gave him that day. She still feels the same about it! ]
A valuable lesson indeed.
[ The only opinions that were necessary were hers and his.
But there's still a playful air to the way she moves closer and lets an arm twine around his. ]
I have no objection to that addition.
[ It's completely factual! No difference of opinion! He is her Dimitri now, and she is his El. And she has agreed to marry him of her own accord - finally, as he says. Leaning sideways into him, she presses a kiss to his shoulder. He may have had to wait but that in no way detracts from the depth of her affection, or her determination to overcome the challenges of their... unusual circumstances.
Even the initials they carved into this home were of their own accord, unlike the plaque in Dimitri's manor. They are truly writing their own future. ]
[ Oh, there she goes, trying to distract him again-- well, perhaps not on purpose, but how is he supposed to focus on anything else when she's claiming his personal space with an arm around his and a kiss to his shoulder, all sweet affections and playful intent like he once could only dream of? It may not be so much of a rarity these days, not so unexpected as to catch him off guard, but he doesn't think he'll ever have it in him not to treasure every second of it.
So he indulges for yet another moment longer, presses his own lips to the crown of her head, buries his nose in her hair so to devote more of his senses to her-- taste, smell, sight, touch. Hearing registers last, and her suggestion earns a small chuckle from him. ]
I see no reason to postpone it.
[ Does her impatience surprise him? Never. But the fact that, for once, that trait of hers has her eager to share the status of their relationship sure does-- normally that would be his role! But he's clicking through links in the network before she has the chance to change her mind, the bracelet on his wrist held up between them so she can also look at the screen as he explores their options. ]
Ah, here it is. [ A few more clicks and a moment to hum to himself. He's had more than long enough to grown used to all this technology, but trying to edit an anonymous post is a brand new experience to him. ] It seems I can no longer assign it to my name, but I do still have access to the body of the message itself...
[ Meaning he technically can't un-anon the post itself, but he can edit it! Which is good news, but still leaves them with one problem: how are they supposed to make this announcement together on a post that only he has access to?
It's only when he spots his comment thread with one other "anonymous" user that he has an idea, breathing out another laugh. ]
Or, we could both make a comment-- with our names attached, this time. What would you prefer?
[ Her hold on his arm loosens so he can work on finding the post but she's curious and watches the screen he conveniently positions between them. Just as anonymous posting was new to her then, she has never edited anything she's said on the network.
In retrospect she can think of a few conversations she would like to... remove. There's nothing wrong with any of the questions she found herself asking of people early in her sexual education but must it all remain public?
But when he makes his suggestion she lets out a small thoughtful hum. ]
It seems appropriate for us to both sign off on it, don't you think?
[ Just give her a moment; now she's using her own bracelet to access the network; she leans in again -- just a bit -- to double check the date of what's on his screen to make her search go faster. ]
Let's leave no room for doubt.
[ If they're going to update this public disagreement let them do it with purpose! ]
[ Oh, of course he agrees they should both sign off on it, and perhaps it is silly of him to still be so caught off guard by her prompt and enthusiastic response even though their current relationship is a far cry from what it was at the time of his posting, and yet it surprises him, still. Perhaps deep down, it will never cease to surprise him, to see how much (and how terribly fond) they have grown.
(It's a good kind of surprise, though. The kind that will always remind him to not ever take the gift of her heart for granted.) ]
We shall see to it with haste.
[ He pulls away from her only long enough to type a message on his bracelet, eyes skimming over the contents once he's finished-- or, once he thinks he is, though he makes one last-minute addition with an all too amused smile playing on his lips. Now it is truly complete. ]
There. [ Once the message has been sent, he shifts his gaze back to her, expectation mingled with a subtle flair of mischief. ] I should hope it is to your liking, beloved.
[ Even though it is decidedly a jab at her old anonymous comment to him, but hey! They can afford to make jokes about it now! ]
[ She looks up in the middle of reading his message, the affectionate jab in it making her eyebrows arch and her cheeks just a bit pink, but there is still no protest out of her mouth. She had been so frustrated by his every response when they originally had this discussion!
She has rarely been frustrated with him since, although it helps to be separated from the most important issues they differ on. ]
It wraps things up nicely.
[ But she still has to comment herself, of course, and she takes a few minutes -- her typing much improved over the years -- to do so.
When she finishes she takes a moment to smile up at him, once again a flower leaning for the sun. There's an odd giddy feeling in her chest; even making the announcement for whatever faceless strangers may one day read their news feels significant
Of course none of their friends will be taken by surprise at this point but it still feels nice to take the step together. This is what they have chosen. He is who she has chosen. ]
In fact, I think you should consult me directly this very moment, Dimitri. Right on my lips.
[ Oh, her face. If only he could tell his past self that one day their public disagreement and once reason for contention would turn into light-hearted jabs and minor embarrassment they can look back on with fondness, then perhaps that old Dimitri wouldn't have to feel as troubled as he did, wouldn't have to constantly examine his conflicted feelings for Edelgard.
(Yet, he would gladly do it all over again-- every right step and mistake alike, both equally important in building their trust up and strengthening their bond. Their love.)
For the moment, her reaction earns the most smitten of laughs from him, his arms casually snaking around her waist as she works on her own verification. When she looks up at him again, he leans further over, chin resting on her shoulder so he can read the message off her bracelet instead of his-- his wrist and hand are put to much better use idly stroking her sides, you see, maybe even straying just a bit to her hips. Mostly innocent, but there is intent to it. ]
Always so impatient.
[ A small tease, a distraction as his hands find new purpose yet again and swiftly hoist her onto his lap without effort; it's not quite the lifting he's grown so used to, but it's as best as he can do while they're both seated. ]
But from today onwards, neither of us will be made to wait.
[ And so they don't, his lips "consulting" hers as he has and intends to continuing doing every single day. She never has to wait for his kisses; he finally no longer waits for her to become his bride. ]
[ The first few times he ever said that to her she had no idea that he was drawing from a longer shared history than she imagined. Then, once she knew differently, she had to reflect on what she could remember and weigh how impatient she thought herself as a child.
But it's never -- never -- sounded like a complaint so much as sly observation. If he has ever cursed her for being so quick to act it hasn't been here. ]
If I didn't know better, Dimitri, I'd say you were a little impatient yourself.
[ Being perched in his lap positions her perfectly for kisses and it just so happens that she thinks he has much to consult her about.
And the consulting doesn't stop there. While she still maintains a certain regal composure while they're out, she's never been so free with her kisses in public of her own free will. She kisses him after they make their announcement and toast to their friends; she kisses him with faintly champagne lips as they leave the restaurant; she kisses him like it's a reward after she skates across the ice to him, only wobbling once; she kisses him when it's just the two of them again, reentering their apartment to a solemn mrow from Shadow that suggests he's ready for a little attention of his own, thank you. A dozen times in between she kisses him - the fact that she can't do everything she wants here is no longer the same kind of obstacle it once was. There is happiness to be had and they should have it.
When they finally embark on their late-night walk the sky is black, barely dotted by stars, and there's just a hint of a breeze. She keeps a leisurely pace, her hand in his, but there's no question that she walks with purpose and she dressed for it, in easy-to-remove sandals and a long lightweight skirt she can easily gather when the time comes. Her long ponytail gleams in the silvery ambient light. ]
I hope you had a good day.
[ A good day-that-we've-adopted-as-your-birthday. ]
I think I can say with certainty that I'll never forget it.
[ She knows what it's like to hold certain memories so close that they act as a raft in a turbulent sea. With a memory like today and Dimitri's ring beside her heart how could she ever give up? ]
[ The last time they met so many of their friends at the restaurant, Dimitri had nearly drunk everyone under the table; if he feels light-headed tonight, it is most definitely not thanks to champagne.
(He's always known her kisses to be inebriating.) ]
It is the happiest I have had on the island. Possibly, throughout my entire life, as well.
[ An easy truth as his response, though it still surprises him to say. Happiness, or even simple moments of joy, have never been a constant in his life; he has plenty of wonderful memories from his childhood, a few more to treasure from his Academy days, and so much to be grateful for since finding his heart again, but this? This inescapable flutter in his gut, the unrelenting urge to smile and laugh, her unforgiving onslaught of affection? That is entirely new, the lightness in his chest at odds with the overwhelming weight of happiness as he's never known. Like he once thought he never would.
But he has and he does and it's right here, right within his reach, in the fingers interlaced with his. So he pauses in his tracks and lifts them to his lips as he's done so many times before, the gesture so casual now but ever so full of meaning. ]
Thank you, my beloved. [ Will she ever tire of his gratitude? It is a much better alternative to apologies, at the very least. ] I would never have such memorable moments to cherish if not for you.
[ There is weight to his words, too, but he doesn't want to linger in dark sobriety, not tonight of all times. So he gives her hand a gentle squeeze -- reassuring, grounding -- and picks up their leisure pace again, a good humored smile already tugging at his lips. ]
Ah, I suppose I should get started on making plans for your birthday next. Although outdoing today might be quite the tall order...
[ A smile, quick and genuine and full of melting warmth, spreads across her face before she even manages to form words. ]
There is no need for a competition, my love. What will please me most is being able to spend it with you.
[ The briefest pause as their joined hands fall to their sides again. She answers the squeeze he gives her hand with one of her own, an affectionate echo. ]
My husband.
[ A husband to share whatever birthday adventures she wishes to have. It wasn't so long ago that she could barely even imagine it. She steals a sideways glance up at his face, her eyes betraying how much she likes the sound of this little possessive term.
Soon it'll be obvious that they're moving toward the beach. It's not so odd -- she likes picturesque locations to enjoy on her walks -- but it is a less common route at night. ]
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But it is difficult to imagine.
She threads his necklace through the small loop on his pendant, her expression thoughtful. Would she listen to herself? Her eyes stray to his face for a moment, then down at his large fingers on her own pendant. She has to be honest, as dissatisfying as the answer is: ]
I'm not certain. If the attempt is made after everything plays out as Byleth described, perhaps not.
[ It depends on how it is handled, she supposes, but if she has lost everything, if she has fought him in the palace and been defeated, if her allies are dead or scattered, if she has transformed... ]
There was no-- [ She pauses slightly, as though gathering her thoughts. ] --room in Byleth's account for personal details about her. [ This isn't even particularly Byleth's fault; it seems there wasn't exactly time for in-depth discussion with her counterpart. ] Such as whether the transformation had any affect on her [ my ] mind. Regardless, I think hearing me speak more or less as your ally could simply be a betrayal at that point.
[ What a shame that she thinks herself unlikely to grant a second parley so soon. Not even to the boy who kept her from losing her heart in the most difficult time of her life. Her eyes meet his again and she offers a tight smile. ]
I'm sure you now understand why trust would be so difficult for her to measure out but imagine learning that you are one of multiple versions of yourself and you may be the least fortunate. Worse, you have only learned this when you are no longer in a position for another Dimitri's knowledge to be of actionable benefit.
I am not unwilling to speak to her. On the contrary, I wonder if there is anyone better equipped to deal with our counterparts than ourselves and I think we should consider this further. Even so, it would be hard for her to give weight to what I say.
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I appreciate your honesty. [ This much, he can say in earnest. ] In all truth, it is as I suspected: she may be beyond my reach at this point, and the Professor's accounts only reinforced that thought. But I--
[ The breath he expels is something of a groan, a shake of his head marking his frustration. There are so many ways for him to finish that sentence: that he should have reached for her sooner, that he doesn't want to lose anyone else, that he still cares about her against all odds, that he wishes to save her though it may not be his place to. Would it bother this Edelgard -- his El -- to hear of his depth of feeling for her counterpart? He doesn't think her given to jealousy, but this is a very unique circumstance they find themselves in.
But his El is not beyond his reach, and so reach he does, his palm moving up from her pendant to cup her cheek, thumb stroking skin. No matter how far his thoughts stray, he would be hard pressed to look at that face and not feel a smile spring up in his. ]
You are my one and only beloved. But whether out of fondness for the little girl who was once my dearest, or the feelings I have for the woman standing before me... Across infinite timelines, I know there is no Edelgard von Hresvelg whose smile I would not love to see.
[ As long as they carry even a small fraction of the El he befriended or the El he came to love, so too will they carry a piece of his heart. Going forward, it is only fair that his wife should know. ]
My apologies, I did not mean to sour such momentous occasion. I know that she would call me foolish for it.
[ Is this one of the many ways in which his El and her counterpart are the same, or is this where they differ? He's still waiting on a verdict. ]
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Leave out the manipulated intimacy and the fact that they didn't choose to come here and much about their story is...
Well, surprisingly romantic. The romance she once told both Dorothea and, more recently, Dimitri himself that she expected to never have. That much she is grateful for. To know love, and more specifically his love. ]
Dimitri--
[ His large soft heart is not foolish on its own. There have been times when she painted him with broad strokes, thinking his heart was too soft or he was too attached to the Church or he was incapable of action when it was needed, and she doesn't think she has always been wrong when judging him but their lives are complications upon complications and she has had a chance to learn his shades of gray by now. ]
--I am not certain that I ever felt particularly special before I met you. Do you know that? I was not by nature an unhappy child but I was one of many and sometimes felt it. I was my father's daughter or someone's sister.
[ And then the experimentation she endured made her a type of special she would not ever have wanted, but that isn't the point she wants to make. The point is that knowing there is so much affection for her in that large soft heart of his still sometimes takes her by surprise. The fact that they can never be those children again doesn't actually detract from the fact that they were those children.
And many of the things she wanted as a child she still wants now.
With a hint of something like pride, she leans in to return his necklace to his rightful place. Not without a small kiss to the side of his face. ]
You have not soured our occasion. I'm pleased that we can speak about difficult subjects and work together to lessen the bloodshed in our future.
[ Combining their strength, one might say. Once the necklace is clasped behind his neck, she frames his face with her hands. ]
I would like for my counterpart to live and see her goals achieved and have a taste of personal happiness. If she cannot see her way past a cell of course she will not go along willingly. But perhaps there is a way to tell her what you know and find a goal that can be worked toward together. Byleth's past does not have to be your future. We will write that ourselves.
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But these days? He can see how she would be made to feel special-- because he actively tries, because she has always been a special presence in his life, through highs and lows. Perhaps she'll never quite understand the full depth of his feelings for her, because she never quite witnessed how deep his hatred ran, but what he told her several months ago remains true. And what else is there to say of a man who loves her more than his once only reason to keep breathing? ]
I can only trust that we will, my beloved. [ He has to, lest that large soft heart of his will shatter. ] And right here and now, between your warm hands, I do. This bright future that you have envisioned... may it be intertwined with mine forevermore.
[ The details of which can be discussed at length and planned for at a later moment, because right now? All he wants is to close his eyes and lean into her touch, her hands dwarfed under his, the curve of his chest swelling and deflating with each deep breath. For all that his mind sometimes will race with affliction for the lives and fates that are beyond his reach, she can calm the tempest every bit as well as she could once cast it.
The breath he exhales is short and bittersweet. ]
It is somewhat of an ironic thought, is it not?
[ Does he intend to leave her in the shadows? Of course not. The pause he takes is only so he can see her again, a gentle brush of his knuckles treating her cheek. ]
You, who would once see yourself as though being no more than your war, and I, a man who is only good for war. Perhaps that is why only you can make me feel at such peace.
[ If Edelgard is her war, then in her Dimitri has found his Somewhere to Belong. ]
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When he leans into her touch, she welcomes it like she could roll herself in his affection and be buoyant for the rest of her days. She has spent too much time heavy with dire purpose. ]
You are not only good for war. In fact, you have proven yourself capable of building bridges.
[ Still, what he says isn't lost on her. There is a certain odd balance in it, and more importantly she is glad to know that she brings him peace. ]
But I will take you all the same. [ Urging his hand toward her lips, she kisses his open palm and then folds his fingers as though to trap that affection in place. ] Together we may even be good for love.
[ The words sound a bit strange to her own ears. They aren't grounded in any grim practicality; he rekindles her hope. ]
There is something else I'd like for us to do but I think it should wait until the weather clears. [ The snow may not be cold but by the end of a walk they could be covered in it. ] Perhaps later tonight.
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Ah, what a silly thought. He just made a vow that Edelgard would never be alone again; that also means neither will he. ]
That may be something else we have learned together.
[ And he will treasure every bit of it, the affection she places right at the center of his palm and that he holds on to with all of his strength-- and his closed fist even draws Hugo's attention for a moment, his little snout trying to sniff out the promise of a hidden snack, but alas, this particular kind of treat is only meant for the larger feline in the room. ]
Ah, you are full of surprises today, eh? [ After a moment's pause for some brief ear scratches -- what a heinous crime it would be, to deny his cat some of his own affection -- Dimitri turns to Edelgard again, his full attention freely given. ] What is it that you would like to do? An evening stroll if you cannot fall asleep?
[ However long it has been since their days of sporadic evening walks and late night messages, already it feels like a lifetime ago. ]
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I think I'm still learning.
[ Obviously falling in love with Dimitri has been... a process, though in some ways it has been easier than one might expect, helped along significantly by their forced separation from the war and the utter absence of those who slither in the dark. It will still be a challenge to build bridges whenever she returns.
But Hugo's curious sniffing makes her let out a small laugh. The hand she holds out to him is also sadly empty but beckoning with a promise of scratches. There are no felines in this apartment who don't like that! ]
What I had in mind was an evening stroll before we even consider sleep.
[ A walk together is something they could do at any time but there's a specific purpose driving this! Timing is important. ]
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Is that truly all you had in mind? [ A good-humored lilt lingers in his voice, but he does narrow his eyes in curious suspicion. ] I would not object, far from it, but I reckon there is no need for such formality over a simple evening stroll together.
[ Well. Admittedly she is still a fair bit formal without any real need for it, much like she was about their teatime in the balcony; he now understands she had grander plans to unfold, and perhaps that is why he expects something more of their promised walk. ]
Be it as it may, know that you may ask whatever you wish of me. As long as it is in my power, you every whim will be met today.
[ It's only fair, isn't it? She's just given him everything he could ask for. ]
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I hardly think it's formal to tell you all I would like to make a point of doing with you today.
[ Well, it's not all. She hasn't veered into anything suggestive... yet.
But another laugh escapes her. ]
It's not my whims we should be following today. [ It isn't that she particularly needs a special day to show or be shown affection but it does feel good to have a nice birthday and contribute to him having one as well. To drive her point home: ] Is there anything you would like to do to celebrate further?
[ Think no more about tonight's walk right now! Later she'll suggest that he wear trousers he can easily roll up for a walk on the beach. ]
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I can think of something I would like us to do once we return from our stroll.
[ There's nothing wrong with the tongue that wets his lips, or the way his voice doesn't drop to a whisper, or even with the less than perfectly innocent quirk to the corner of his mouth-- nothing wrong with being suggestive here, in the privacy of their home. It's something Dimitri had to struggle with for quite some time, his reservations ever so lingering, but he's learned to find comfort in showing both his love and his want for his most beloved without restraints. ]
As for what we could do before then-- [ He pauses for a second, humming as he mulls over his thoughts. ] It may be short notice, but I would enjoy having dinner with our closest friends. [ And also share the news? Their home worlds were a different story, but their formal engagement should come as no surprise to anyone on the island-- and besides, he absolutely must (gloat at) tell Sylvain at the very least, come on! ] Perhaps going skating, assuming the ice will actually keep. It has been a long time since I last had the chance to...
[ Would that even be something Edelgard would be interested in? He remembers she was never thrilled about ice skating as a child, though he would be happy to teach her. ]
But, these are simply whims that I can go without. My one true wish has already been granted.
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And then realizes a fraction of a moment after she gives him her most attentive look that he's blatantly flirting. There was a time when everything suggestive that he said was an accident, something he seemed to stumble blindly into, but now...
Well, now he licks his lips like a cat anticipating a meal and it isn't at all lost on her that she is that meal. Sorry, Hugo, but now her hand finds its way into Dimitri's hair instead. ]
Then I suppose the only question is whether or not we will make it to a bed first.
[ They don't have to. Her eyes have been opened to positions and locations she would not have imagined (and would possibly have been scandalized by) before. Just living on the island was eye-opening but living with Dimitri has taken it a step further. There is no room they can't use, no surface they can't "bless," no need to hurry into a bedroom and hide their passion beneath the blankets. Unless they want to. It's not something she could have expected to feel liberated by but she does.
She leans in to press her lips against his chin. He may be sweetly proclaiming that what he truly wants he has already received but that is no reason not to celebrate to the fullest. ]
Why don't we first let our friends know that we would like to have dinner with them? Perhaps we can meet at the restaurant. Then-- [ She's allowed to give her husband-to-be one more kiss before she finishes her thought. ] --we can investigate the ice.
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But then she flirts back, and it evokes many a memory-- the oldest dating back to a masquerade they attended, soon after she learned of his identity. Influenced as they both had been, he did not step back from his (reckless) propositioning even when their masks fell off, and she came over of her own volition, and what followed was such a surge of renewed urgency for each other's touch they couldn't even make it to his bedroom. It was a bit scandalous to think about, at the time, and probably the kind of behavior they would actively have to watch out for back in their worlds, but here, in this home they have built for themselves? It's just right. ]
I suppose a walk together could have us working up quite an appetite.
[ Yes, just right enough that he can take their flirting a step further, his lips seeking her kiss when she aims for his chin, once, twice, unabashed in his greed-- and he would love to get carried away in the moment, kiss her in full and get a head start on their celebrations, but their schedule sounds tightly packed, doesn't it? Finish their tea, have an impromptu dinner with friends, skating on ice, then a walk together... If anything, they should start getting ready soon. How strange it still feels, to have so much to look forward to.
(Sometimes, he still wonders if he deserves any of it.) ]
That sounds like an excellent plan. [ Her kiss chases his intrusive thoughts away, and he thanks her in silence with another. ] They might even wish to join us for a stint on the ice. Even Felix seemed to enjoy it, a year ago.
[ It had meant much to Dimitri, too, as that was the first time since their heavy heart-to-heart that he and Felix got to stop avoiding each other and and take active steps in mending their friendship back up. It is not nearly as fraught now as it was back then, but the memory still gives him pause. ]
Do you think we should formally share the news with them?
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A walk and skating. [ Well. Possibly skating, if it looks safe enough to her resident ice skating expert. ] I expect us to be quite hungry by then.
[ Not to mention the small surprise she intends to give him on their walk, which she suspects may make his heart swell. The thought of this shared experience makes hers simultaneously flutter with nerves and soar with pride. ]
Would you like to? I see no reason not to, unless you would like to speak of it privately with anyone.
[ But the truth is that she doubts it will be much of a surprise. Their romance has involved sharing their day-to-day lives for well over a year now. Sleeping together, waking together, exploring together.
In some ways it feels like making up for lost time. ]
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Then I suppose teatime will have to last us long past dinner.
[ Does he mean their tea and baked goods as sustenance? No, not really, and the way he leans over for just one more kiss is a good indicator of his true intent. A little more flirting can't hurt, right?
(The real challenge is to keep it to flirting only-- can't get carried away, they have plans to get to! Speaking of:) ]
Oh, I would prefer sharing the news over dinner, myself. [ He reaches over for another gougères, choosing to focus on the food for the moment-- the only part of his hunger that can be immediately sated. ] But the last time I acted on my own over this particular topic, it became reason for contention, remember?
[ It's as light-hearted a jab as any, but one can't say he hasn't learned his lesson!
When next he hums, it's both in appreciation of the cheesy delight and in thoughtful contemplation, head tilting to one side. ]
I wonder if it would be possible to make one small addition to that anonymous post.
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But when he takes the opportunity to treat himself to something besides her kisses, she gives him a smile accompanied by an arched eyebrow. ]
As I recall-- [ They will never not recall this but she is also capable of being playful! ] --we were not actually married when you consulted the network. This announcement is one we will make together, with no need for anyone's advice.
[ Wait, what's that he said? Her eyes widen. ]
What is there to add?
[ Half a moment later: ]
Perhaps that we have come to a different agreement?
[ Is the network archived? Can people go that far back and read that post even now? Has he ever gotten a late reply weighing in on the status of their spur-of-the-moment influenced exchange of vows? ]
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Well. At least tonight, after they have seen to their schedule. In the meantime, he will bask in this easy playfulness and take comfort in the fact that, for once, the topic at hand doesn't have him feeling self-conscious over his ill-advised decisions in the past. ]
No one's advice, perhaps. But I did learn a valuable lesson that day-- that is, to always consult with you before making any public remarks about our relationship.
[ To think he felt as though he couldn't talk openly with her-- and at the time, perhaps he really couldn't! Ah, how that feels so far behind them now, with their fingers casually interlocking and the plans they enthusiastically discuss... ]
If it is possible to make such a late addition, I would like to say you have finally agreed to marry me of your own accord. [ Very! Belatedly!! Though his smile says he doesn't really mind it. ] In truth, I doubt anyone would read it. But just as we have carved out our names in this home, I would like to leave no loose knots behind once we return to our worlds.
[ Or: let future island historians have no doubt that "Mrs. Blaiddyd" was so much more than a simple robot imposition! ]
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A valuable lesson indeed.
[ The only opinions that were necessary were hers and his.
But there's still a playful air to the way she moves closer and lets an arm twine around his. ]
I have no objection to that addition.
[ It's completely factual! No difference of opinion! He is her Dimitri now, and she is his El. And she has agreed to marry him of her own accord - finally, as he says. Leaning sideways into him, she presses a kiss to his shoulder. He may have had to wait but that in no way detracts from the depth of her affection, or her determination to overcome the challenges of their... unusual circumstances.
Even the initials they carved into this home were of their own accord, unlike the plaque in Dimitri's manor. They are truly writing their own future. ]
Shall we do it now?
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So he indulges for yet another moment longer, presses his own lips to the crown of her head, buries his nose in her hair so to devote more of his senses to her-- taste, smell, sight, touch. Hearing registers last, and her suggestion earns a small chuckle from him. ]
I see no reason to postpone it.
[ Does her impatience surprise him? Never. But the fact that, for once, that trait of hers has her eager to share the status of their relationship sure does-- normally that would be his role! But he's clicking through links in the network before she has the chance to change her mind, the bracelet on his wrist held up between them so she can also look at the screen as he explores their options. ]
Ah, here it is. [ A few more clicks and a moment to hum to himself. He's had more than long enough to grown used to all this technology, but trying to edit an anonymous post is a brand new experience to him. ] It seems I can no longer assign it to my name, but I do still have access to the body of the message itself...
[ Meaning he technically can't un-anon the post itself, but he can edit it! Which is good news, but still leaves them with one problem: how are they supposed to make this announcement together on a post that only he has access to?
It's only when he spots his comment thread with one other "anonymous" user that he has an idea, breathing out another laugh. ]
Or, we could both make a comment-- with our names attached, this time. What would you prefer?
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In retrospect she can think of a few conversations she would like to... remove. There's nothing wrong with any of the questions she found herself asking of people early in her sexual education but must it all remain public?
But when he makes his suggestion she lets out a small thoughtful hum. ]
It seems appropriate for us to both sign off on it, don't you think?
[ Just give her a moment; now she's using her own bracelet to access the network; she leans in again -- just a bit -- to double check the date of what's on his screen to make her search go faster. ]
Let's leave no room for doubt.
[ If they're going to update this public disagreement let them do it with purpose! ]
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(It's a good kind of surprise, though. The kind that will always remind him to not ever take the gift of her heart for granted.) ]
We shall see to it with haste.
[ He pulls away from her only long enough to type a message on his bracelet, eyes skimming over the contents once he's finished-- or, once he thinks he is, though he makes one last-minute addition with an all too amused smile playing on his lips. Now it is truly complete. ]
There. [ Once the message has been sent, he shifts his gaze back to her, expectation mingled with a subtle flair of mischief. ] I should hope it is to your liking, beloved.
[ Even though it is decidedly a jab at her old anonymous comment to him, but hey! They can afford to make jokes about it now! ]
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She has rarely been frustrated with him since, although it helps to be separated from the most important issues they differ on. ]
It wraps things up nicely.
[ But she still has to comment herself, of course, and she takes a few minutes -- her typing much improved over the years -- to do so.
When she finishes she takes a moment to smile up at him, once again a flower leaning for the sun. There's an odd giddy feeling in her chest; even making the announcement for whatever faceless strangers may one day read their news feels significant
Of course none of their friends will be taken by surprise at this point but it still feels nice to take the step together. This is what they have chosen. He is who she has chosen. ]
In fact, I think you should consult me directly this very moment, Dimitri. Right on my lips.
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(Yet, he would gladly do it all over again-- every right step and mistake alike, both equally important in building their trust up and strengthening their bond. Their love.)
For the moment, her reaction earns the most smitten of laughs from him, his arms casually snaking around her waist as she works on her own verification. When she looks up at him again, he leans further over, chin resting on her shoulder so he can read the message off her bracelet instead of his-- his wrist and hand are put to much better use idly stroking her sides, you see, maybe even straying just a bit to her hips. Mostly innocent, but there is intent to it. ]
Always so impatient.
[ A small tease, a distraction as his hands find new purpose yet again and swiftly hoist her onto his lap without effort; it's not quite the lifting he's grown so used to, but it's as best as he can do while they're both seated. ]
But from today onwards, neither of us will be made to wait.
[ And so they don't, his lips "consulting" hers as he has and intends to continuing doing every single day. She never has to wait for his kisses; he finally no longer waits for her to become his bride. ]
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But it's never -- never -- sounded like a complaint so much as sly observation. If he has ever cursed her for being so quick to act it hasn't been here. ]
If I didn't know better, Dimitri, I'd say you were a little impatient yourself.
[ Being perched in his lap positions her perfectly for kisses and it just so happens that she thinks he has much to consult her about.
And the consulting doesn't stop there. While she still maintains a certain regal composure while they're out, she's never been so free with her kisses in public of her own free will. She kisses him after they make their announcement and toast to their friends; she kisses him with faintly champagne lips as they leave the restaurant; she kisses him like it's a reward after she skates across the ice to him, only wobbling once; she kisses him when it's just the two of them again, reentering their apartment to a solemn mrow from Shadow that suggests he's ready for a little attention of his own, thank you. A dozen times in between she kisses him - the fact that she can't do everything she wants here is no longer the same kind of obstacle it once was. There is happiness to be had and they should have it.
When they finally embark on their late-night walk the sky is black, barely dotted by stars, and there's just a hint of a breeze. She keeps a leisurely pace, her hand in his, but there's no question that she walks with purpose and she dressed for it, in easy-to-remove sandals and a long lightweight skirt she can easily gather when the time comes. Her long ponytail gleams in the silvery ambient light. ]
I hope you had a good day.
[ A good day-that-we've-adopted-as-your-birthday. ]
I think I can say with certainty that I'll never forget it.
[ She knows what it's like to hold certain memories so close that they act as a raft in a turbulent sea. With a memory like today and Dimitri's ring beside her heart how could she ever give up? ]
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(He's always known her kisses to be inebriating.) ]
It is the happiest I have had on the island. Possibly, throughout my entire life, as well.
[ An easy truth as his response, though it still surprises him to say. Happiness, or even simple moments of joy, have never been a constant in his life; he has plenty of wonderful memories from his childhood, a few more to treasure from his Academy days, and so much to be grateful for since finding his heart again, but this? This inescapable flutter in his gut, the unrelenting urge to smile and laugh, her unforgiving onslaught of affection? That is entirely new, the lightness in his chest at odds with the overwhelming weight of happiness as he's never known. Like he once thought he never would.
But he has and he does and it's right here, right within his reach, in the fingers interlaced with his. So he pauses in his tracks and lifts them to his lips as he's done so many times before, the gesture so casual now but ever so full of meaning. ]
Thank you, my beloved. [ Will she ever tire of his gratitude? It is a much better alternative to apologies, at the very least. ] I would never have such memorable moments to cherish if not for you.
[ There is weight to his words, too, but he doesn't want to linger in dark sobriety, not tonight of all times. So he gives her hand a gentle squeeze -- reassuring, grounding -- and picks up their leisure pace again, a good humored smile already tugging at his lips. ]
Ah, I suppose I should get started on making plans for your birthday next. Although outdoing today might be quite the tall order...
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There is no need for a competition, my love. What will please me most is being able to spend it with you.
[ The briefest pause as their joined hands fall to their sides again. She answers the squeeze he gives her hand with one of her own, an affectionate echo. ]
My husband.
[ A husband to share whatever birthday adventures she wishes to have. It wasn't so long ago that she could barely even imagine it. She steals a sideways glance up at his face, her eyes betraying how much she likes the sound of this little possessive term.
Soon it'll be obvious that they're moving toward the beach. It's not so odd -- she likes picturesque locations to enjoy on her walks -- but it is a less common route at night. ]
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