Yes. I did. Because I didn't know. You kept it from me, deliberately. You...you let me...do all of that, thinking it was the first time. For--for us.
[Clearly not Dimitri's first time overall. The thought brings another surge of shame. Dimitri...there's no more accurate way to say it. Dimitri took advantage of the closeness he'd had with Felix's previous selves here. Made Felix believe it was about him, when it wasn't. Whether or not he wanted that with his king - wanted to give what he gave - is immaterial, because he gave it under false pretenses. He wishes he could take it back. He wishes so badly he could take it back and...and give it to Sylvain instead. But no one can turn back time.
He scowls at the question, but doesn't turn around. The more he thinks about this, the more he's not sure he will ever be able to look Dimitri in the face again.]
What difference does it make? None of this matters. You've made your choice. You made it before you ever...before I ever got here. What else is there to say?
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[Clearly not Dimitri's first time overall. The thought brings another surge of shame. Dimitri...there's no more accurate way to say it. Dimitri took advantage of the closeness he'd had with Felix's previous selves here. Made Felix believe it was about him, when it wasn't. Whether or not he wanted that with his king - wanted to give what he gave - is immaterial, because he gave it under false pretenses. He wishes he could take it back. He wishes so badly he could take it back and...and give it to Sylvain instead. But no one can turn back time.
He scowls at the question, but doesn't turn around. The more he thinks about this, the more he's not sure he will ever be able to look Dimitri in the face again.]
What difference does it make? None of this matters. You've made your choice. You made it before you ever...before I ever got here. What else is there to say?